Old White Barn of Winter

Old White Barn of Winter

kmh 2005

I have returned from my computer imposed hiatus and I am having trouble editing what has been going on in my life since then! lol So much to say so little time and it is leaving me wondering if I even have the energy to rehash any of it! lol I did manage to get out with my camera but I am sad to say this picture above was the best of show. I am not fond of winter, it keeps me indoors and gives me little incentive to get out and shoot.

So many of the old family farms are selling off to the builders around here and I have to scramble to save a few in photo so they don't erase themselves from my memory....... "Progress" is bittersweet at best. I don't think the old barn shown above is even in use now, it looks as if it could cave in at anytime, but I am sure it was glorious in it's youth. I am drawn to old barns, old trees and the waters edge....I find solace in them, they best describe me when I am content with being me.

I am still trying to figure out if 2005 was a good year or not for me.....So many firsts happened that year, 2 of my daughters moved out on their own, one became engaged, one is still reeling from the news her current beau (of 10 months) has been diagnosed with schizophrenia.....So much for a young girl of 19 to have to deal with, her naiveness of the disorder makes her think she is stronger than it, she does not know the battle is all uphill and life long, but at 19 and out on her own, she is making her own decisions even after consulting with me first...... I see heartbreak in her future and that hangs heavy in my own heart..... Heartbreak for the both of them.