Ah Hah Moments.........

I am constantly evolving and I love being a Woman! In my 20's I didn't feel like a woman yet...I felt like a child playing dress up, I wasn't feeling it in my 30's either, I was to busy being Mom and Wife.....it wasn't until my 40's that I finally feel like I have arrived at womanhood. I am comfortable in my own skin and I am finally at peace with myself. ALL PHOTOGRAPHS AND POETRY ARE ORIGINAL(MINE) UNLESS OTHERWISE NOTED AND ARE PROTECTED BY COPY RIGHT ON DAY OF ENTRY.... KMH

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I have many passions....I am a lover of life, I get inspiration everyday from my world around me. I enjoy even the simplest things in life.......a beautiful sky, my children's laughter, the dance of a butterfly and music! I love to share my window of the world through the lens of my camera. I try not to overlook the smallest of gifts that Mother Nature has provided for me. I keep my mind open because every moment is a learning experience and if you are still and very quiet, it will let itself be known to you. Sometimes you are the teacher of life's lessons and sometimes you are the student. Each day is a new beginning and has endless possibilities. So live well, and laugh often and more, my dear friends......love much!

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Tall Pines 2006

Nothing calms my mind like a drive through the North Woods. My favorite thing to view are the forests of the tall pines. There they have stood for decades looking perfectly aligned, side by side. I love how the suns plays hide and seek along the forest floor, I purposely loose myself somewhere between the sun and shadows.

It's the woods and the waters that call my name, I find my peace there, my mind goes quiet as I become one with Mother Nature. Maybe I'm not such a city girl after all.

Friday, January 27, 2006

Summer Revisited (2005)

I had the pleasure of watching this baby break from it's shell, call to it's Mother for food and take flight for it's first time. I learned that there isn't much difference between Mother's of all kinds. We give life, we give love, we give guidance and we learn to let them go and we pray they soar higher than we ever did.

Monday, January 23, 2006

I was born an innocent, we all were. My childhood was of another matter. Enduring what I had to endure, I added layer upon layer of brick and mortar which I had to apply to save the little girl lost in me. I managed to keep her safe even though there were plenty of times I thought I lost her for sure. My saving grace came from my Mother's love for me. She is was made a difference in my outcome as an adult. Because of her I did not succumb to the dark side even though I had plenty of bruising inside and out, to send and keep me there.

After therapy I learned how to peel back the many layers of me. Each layer had a purpose of being there, a reason for it's existence. But in order to become who I am today, I had to shed those layers no matter how painful the process was....... Because under all those layers I was able to find my inner self, my inner beauty.

I did not want my childhood to define who I was even though it had a part of who I am today. I see to many people letting their past hold them back and even hold them under, when the power to set themselves free was in their own hands.

Every once in awhile I will have that fleeting moment when something happens and it takes me back to my childhood, but it no longer silences me. I speak up, I defend my existence and I let it be known that no one has the power to make me feel less than I am. When your a child you have no choice and you have no voice but as an adult, people do to you what you allow them to do to you, it is up to you to find your self worth and let it be known to others.

Saturday, January 21, 2006

"Winter Morning"

Thursday, January 19, 2006

My life force seems so much brighter when there is sunshine in my day, especially after long periods of winter gray. I think sunrises and sunsets are there to remind us to find the beauty in every day. I like the quiet of early morning........My mind is quiet, my house is sleeping soundly, the streets are quiet. It's a great time to center myself for the day. I like to frame many of my photo's with the trees that surround my focal point. Trees always seem to attract my attention the most....It is how I gage the passing of the years. The bare tree of winter, the promise that accompanies the budding leaves of spring, the way a fully leafed tree plays with sunlight and then the splendid colors of fall foliage.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Old White Barn of Winter

Old White Barn of Winter
kmh 2005

I have returned from my computer imposed hiatus and I am having trouble editing what has been going on in my life since then! lol So much to say so little time and it is leaving me wondering if I even have the energy to rehash any of it! lol I did manage to get out with my camera but I am sad to say this picture above was the best of show. I am not fond of winter, it keeps me indoors and gives me little incentive to get out and shoot.

So many of the old family farms are selling off to the builders around here and I have to scramble to save a few in photo so they don't erase themselves from my memory....... "Progress" is bittersweet at best. I don't think the old barn shown above is even in use now, it looks as if it could cave in at anytime, but I am sure it was glorious in it's youth. I am drawn to old barns, old trees and the waters edge....I find solace in them, they best describe me when I am content with being me.

I am still trying to figure out if 2005 was a good year or not for me.....So many firsts happened that year, 2 of my daughters moved out on their own, one became engaged, one is still reeling from the news her current beau (of 10 months) has been diagnosed with schizophrenia.....So much for a young girl of 19 to have to deal with, her naiveness of the disorder makes her think she is stronger than it, she does not know the battle is all uphill and life long, but at 19 and out on her own, she is making her own decisions even after consulting with me first...... I see heartbreak in her future and that hangs heavy in my own heart..... Heartbreak for the both of them.