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I am constantly evolving and I love being a Woman! In my 20's I didn't feel like a woman yet...I felt like a child playing dress up, I wasn't feeling it in my 30's either, I was to busy being Mom and Wife.....it wasn't until my 40's that I finally feel like I have arrived at womanhood. I am comfortable in my own skin and I am finally at peace with myself. ALL PHOTOGRAPHS AND POETRY ARE ORIGINAL(MINE) UNLESS OTHERWISE NOTED AND ARE PROTECTED BY COPY RIGHT ON DAY OF ENTRY.... KMH

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I have many passions....I am a lover of life, I get inspiration everyday from my world around me. I enjoy even the simplest things in life.......a beautiful sky, my children's laughter, the dance of a butterfly and music! I love to share my window of the world through the lens of my camera. I try not to overlook the smallest of gifts that Mother Nature has provided for me. I keep my mind open because every moment is a learning experience and if you are still and very quiet, it will let itself be known to you. Sometimes you are the teacher of life's lessons and sometimes you are the student. Each day is a new beginning and has endless possibilities. So live well, and laugh often and more, my dear friends......love much!

Monday, July 31, 2006

My new path

I walked the quiet, neutral corridor
and I responded to smiles with a smile
I entered without a care in the world
I left with the weight of the world on my shoulders......
Mammogram.....as rude as the tech
after she heard the results
her eyes never met mine again
I knew by the fast appearance
of sympathy that replaced her
I hate my job face.........
Ultra sound.... as gentle as the tech
she saw passed the patient
and remembered the person
she slipped quietly from the room
returning with the Radiologist
With his brown eyes looking into my baby blues
he used words like non-suspicious,borderline and suspicious
he added "way beyond" to my "suspicious"
I now not only have two breasts
I have two tumors
two tumors that were not there
just a few months ago...
now they are taking up residence
without a lease....squatters I will call them
Now suddenly there wasn't enough
space in that ultra sound room
Cancer had joined us and had sucked
up all the oxygen for a moment
I wanted Jim more than the oxygen anyway.....
I have cycled through all the emotions already
I see-saw between numb and really pissed off
It's a good thing I'm a warrior
and I can draw from my own strength
I will not walk quietly, I will carry a big stick.
I will not go quietly.

Monday, March 13, 2006

It is the waters edge
that calls to me by my name
it knows of my hopes
my wishes.....my dreams

It is where my mind is quiet
enough to hear my own thoughts
it is where not only the sunlight
but I too can reflect

I find my solace there
and my spirit is free
to dance upon the current
at the sounds of the water

It is where I remember
to listen to my heart
and where I can rediscover
all that is dear to me.
kmh 2005

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Sunday, February 26, 2006


As a small child you are in awe of the world around you, you dream of far away places and put that on your endless list of things you are going to do when you grow up. Then one day you realized that you have grown up and it is too late to do all those things you dreamed about doing. You realize that even though the world is still a huge place, we are but a speck in the universe when it comes the galaxies far above.

You still dream of visiting those places near and far away but now it has been put on hold for your children and then you say, " I will surely do it after my children are grown!" then your children's children appear and you can't bare watching them grow through photographs, you want to be there every moment of their young lives. So your list of places to visit shrinks that much smaller and sometimes you take notice of that and you just think to yourself.....Oh well! I can still do some of it later, perhaps when I retire.

Your senior years are spent laughing and crying along with your own grown children as they tell you every frustrating, but oh so wonderful tales of their own children's strides in life, and hopefully you have seen just a few of the places you always dreamed of visiting when you were the small child. You no longer believe in the North Pole or Never Never Land but relive some of your old dreams through the dreams of your grandchildren.

Then hopefully if you were truly blessed at the end of your life, you realized the best place to have ever visited was in the heart of someone else.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Many walk through life never discovering it's meaning. And for those who have, it can mean many things......My life's meaning is to live a good life, but not in the tense that phrase is usually associated with, I mean to live my life in a positive way. I count my blessings and never tally my short comings, I know that people and situtations are brought to my life for a reason......Just as I am brought to theirs.

When you realize how many people come and go from you through out your whole life, you appreciate the ones that stay, especially the ones that stay a life time. Most are family but if your lucky, you have friends that have witnessed your life at many stages. I have old, well loved and treasured friends who have witnessed my childhood, my puberty, my coming of age, the sharing of my life with a man of honor and the birth of my children. They have witnessed my children's lives....two who are now at the coming of age and two who are still holding on to their childhood with both hands but running full throttle into the great unknown. I have had many friends walked beside me, some walk ahead of me and some follow close behind and I know that I am blessed to have had this journey through life .........With good companions.

Today is a good day to tell the ones you love.......How much they mean to you!

Monday, February 06, 2006

"Days Gone By"

kmh 2006

Friday, February 03, 2006

As I fast approach yet another new year in my life, I always tend to spend the time before it looking back. I spend a lot of time with the phrase "What if?" I think in the end....My death, I will look back and say I am satisfied with who I am and how I lived my life. I know every bump in the road, every tear on my cheek, and every caution thrown to the wind has made me who I am today.

I meet a lot of people that have something in their past that connects us instantaneously to each other. Sometimes we even verbalize it and sometimes our eyes or a quick nod of the head alerts us to one another. In contrast I sometimes meet people who are so completely different from me that I struggle to find a human connection. I don't mesh well with closed minded individuals, I don't mesh well with the bullies of the world either. And I am vocal in my reasons why. We do not have to accept other peoples lifestyles as our own, we only have to accept our differences and simply live and let live as long as it is something that causes no one else harm.

People argue about so many different things, always thinking that their way is the right way. And if you don't agree with them and their views, then you are in the wrong. We fight about religion, about politics, about simple basic human needs. Don't people realize that if we want to be accepted as who we are then we have to accept others as who they are? It really is that simple. Sometimes when people are fighting, they forget what they are fighting for......they just want to prove their right.

There is that old song, "What the world needs now, is love sweet love" But what I think the world really needs now is compassion for those who are like us and for those who are not. If you want the freedoms to believe in your God, your religion or your political views, then grant that privilege to those around you.

Thursday, February 02, 2006

I had a wonderful excursion out yesterday afternoon with camera in hand. Last summer I discovered a beautiful bronze statue in a neighbors yard and took several shots of it from different angles. I was so impressed with the elegance that I vowed sometime soon to go on a statue hunt through out my city.

My method of choice when shooting is to shoot in close up to extreme close up. When you shoot in this style almost everything you shoot becomes artwork with an almost abstract feel about it.

There are a few ways that I express myself, sometimes it is through written word, other times it is expressed through the lyrics and music of another person and then through the lens of my camera. To understand my photography is to understand me. My lens helps me to express how I'm feeling at any given moment.......... I often wonder if other people pick up on that.

This blog seems to reflect more of my quiet moments caught in photography, I find I post more pictures and use less words here. It must be what I needed to do.